DAZ's First Evolution: Chaos and Order
My mind has been enlightened today.
I no longer think in terms of Love and Hate like I used to.
My mind has been elevated to a new evolutionary level.
I now think in terms of Chaos and Order.
Of which, Love and Hate can be in both.
We shouldn't try to sort Chaos. It only serves to make us more Chaotic, as well. Rather, take a step back out of the world of Chaos and into your own paradise. For me, that's writing. Step back into your private paradise and start to create.
Create tiny tiny pieces of Order. These are art, writing, scientific discoveries, so on. Create small pieces of Order away from the Chaos. Each of these pieces is a brick.
Brick by brick, piece by tiny piece of Order, you will eventually have enough materials to build a shelter for yourself amid the whirlwind of Chaos.
A new age is coming for me.
And I have all of you to thank for it.
Death and murder, violence towards others and oneself serves to create more Chaos.
This is not welcome by me any more.
Chaos and Order. Within their enormous masses, they house every possible emotion and thought in the knowable universe.
And with this tiny piece of Order, I leave you all to create more.
Thank you.
Nothing is true, everything is permitted.
DAZ turned into a spam bot? Nah, it can't be.
Death and murder, violence towards others and oneself serves to create more Chaos.
This is not welcome by me anymore.
I think he's just trying to say he won't assassinate anyone in AC anymore. Instead he will spend his time in the game picking flowers.
DAZ is suddenly deep since he returned. I scared. 
Today a series of strange events and really weird mysterious things happened to me at school, all in sequence, all in order. I can't really say what they are, but no, not a spam bot. It's just.. my way of thinking has been changed.. Drastically. I will Assassinate people in AC all the time. It calms me down, bringing Order to my heart and soul :3
I'm intrigued by your ideas and I'd like to subscribe to your newsletter.
Seriously! 
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WELL SORREEEE
AANYWAY. Seeing as nobody really cares 'bout THAT^^^
Anyone heard of this really awesome game?
http://www.stealthbastard.com/
It's completely free and came out two days ago.
It's stealth based 2D platforming with ledge grabs. Not quite parkour but close, hence "ledge grabs".
Coolest thing is that you can make your own levels, which I'm doing right now so brb. If anyone checks it out, let me know. Watch the trailer first, it's on YouTube and on the main site.
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WELL SORREEEE
AANYWAY. Seeing as nobody really cares 'bout THAT^^^
If you're talking about Lisa's or my comment, then we were just messing around. It's a bit confusing why you'd make a topic about that without a clear reason, though.
I dunno guys, I've just been through a lot of depressing stuff today, but it also made me change the way I think, and I feel a lot better with my new though process/mentality. I guess it's just my way of putting words down on paper and getting things kind of off my mind. I've always been making levels in that game (Stealth Bastard) so that feels kinda nice.
I actually am interested, DAZ. And I want to hear more about it. So if you feel like it, I hope you will.
That's what the Rant Thread was made for. ^_^
I felt like this was a bit different from a rant, I felt like my eyes have been opened by my experiences. I got talked to by a cop, a principal, and a guidance counsellor. I'm a lot less depressed now than I used to be, I just feel like a different person.
I got talked to by a cop, a principal, and a guidance counsellor.
Holy sweet Christ! Sounds serious. 
I'm not sure if building a house of "order" out of self-expression is the best way to deal with problems in general. I could go into much greater detail with this but I'm going to try and keep this brief.
One thing I want to point out is that the elements of chaos and order coexist with each-other. The idea of chaos exists because it is meant to corrupt serenity and order, and vice versa. You yourself mentioned that all emotions and other elements such as love or hate live within the ideas of both order and chaos. You can't have one without the other. It doesn't matter if you build a wall of order with self-expression (art, writing, other literature, ect.). Let me present a scenario from my life:
I had always been a poet in high school but I never actually performed any of the things that I wrote. I only wrote poetry because I enjoyed the challenge of weaving language together cohesively to tell a story or present an argument. It wasn't until my Junior year that I actually decided to start performing in events and assemblies at school and I garnered a reputation as an exceptional writer. So much so that I attracted the attention of one of the prettier girls in school and the ball got rolling from there. She was the first person outside of my family that I actually truly loved as I got to know her better. I wrote her a piece one day that told her my feelings and she cried like a baby. But she never told me if she felt the same way, and I probably made a mistake by not asking her if she did, because she cheated on me with not just one but TWO different people over Spring Break. We were over shortly after, she never missed a beat, and I was traumatized. I ended up writing something as a result of this that ended up being the greatest and worst piece of writing I've ever created in my entire life. It was so perfect that I knew absolutely no one would get the references and metaphors within it except for her, and everyone BUT her would commend me on its depth and use of language. I wrote this piece and eventually performed it for my entire school before the year was over. When I finished everyone stood up and applauded, she ran out in tears, and no one even noticed. Except for me. That was the moment I had been waiting for. For her to feel all the pain I had felt over such a long period of time all in one moment. For her to feel my chaos. For me to restore order to my life. But it failed. I felt even worse than I did before, knowing that I put someone through that kind of pain. I haven't spoken to her since I graduated, which is when she finally apologized to me, and I accepted it even though I felt like what I did was worse. There are very very few regrets I have had in my life. Writing that poem was one of them. I haven't written about anything serious since, just a few things about Michael Jordan. Writing deep poetry like that just reminds me too much of the pain I brought on her and myself.
My point is that in trying to shield myself off from the chaos through trying to bring order to my life I made things even worse for myself. It took that experience for me to understand that revenge is not the answer (at least not all of the time). Problems exist for a reason. You're supposed to find a solution for them. If you make a mistake from solving it, learn from it and move on. The absolute wrong thing to do is to hide from a problem behind a wall of self-expression. One of my favorite lines of all time comes from Lupe Fiasco, "If you don't become an actor, you'll never be a factor." Authors can write about problems and chaos, but its the people that stand up, look for, and eventually implement solutions that gain the most out of life. I stopped writing, started doing, and never looked back.
I was discussing in the rant thread the other day how I deal with alleviating stress. I constantly stressed the idea of doing what you love without worrying about being judged. You love free-running. You love writing. I'm not encouraging you to stop doing it. Actually, I encourage you to get better at both because they are passions of yours. What I am saying here is that neither is a good tool for dealing with problems, facing reality, and living life. You can't run from it and you can't hide from it. Chaos exists for a reason. It keeps order in check. The two balance each other out. When you are faced with issues, you become the order you seek by finding solutions to problems, not by sheltering yourself from them. DAZ, you are still incredibly young. You won't have life pinned down yet (hell, I know I still don't), but you're going to keep growing from a variety of standpoints and your horizons will continue to broaden. You're going to keep gaining knowledge as you go along. Right now, the best thing you can do is just work out your problems head on and learn from your successes and failures through doing so. These trials will teach you even more about life than remaining stationary and writing about what you know now.
And with this piece of order, I now invite you to create more. Build solutions, balance the chaos, and become that which you seek.
I'm not sure if building a house of "order" out of self-expression is the best way to deal with problems in general. I could go into much greater detail with this but I'm going to try and keep this brief.One thing I want to point out is that the elements of chaos and order coexist with each-other. The idea of chaos exists because it is meant to corrupt serenity and order, and vice versa. You yourself mentioned that all emotions and other elements such as love or hate live within the ideas of both order and chaos. You can't have one without the other. It doesn't matter if you build a wall of order with self-expression (art, writing, other literature, ect.). Let me present a scenario from my life:
I had always been a poet in high school but I never actually performed any of the things that I wrote. I only wrote poetry because I enjoyed the challenge of weaving language together cohesively to tell a story or present an argument. It wasn't until my Junior year that I actually decided to start performing in events and assemblies at school and I garnered a reputation as an exceptional writer. So much so that I attracted the attention of one of the prettier girls in school and the ball got rolling from there. She was the first person outside of my family that I actually truly loved as I got to know her better. I wrote her a piece one day that told her my feelings and she cried like a baby. But she never told me if she felt the same way, and I probably made a mistake by not asking her if she did, because she cheated on me with not just one but TWO different people over Spring Break. We were over shortly after, she never missed a beat, and I was traumatized. I ended up writing something as a result of this that ended up being the greatest and worst piece of writing I've ever created in my entire life. It was so perfect that I knew absolutely no one would get the references and metaphors within it except for her, and everyone BUT her would commend me on its depth and use of language. I wrote this piece and eventually performed it for my entire school before the year was over. When I finished everyone stood up and applauded, she ran out in tears, and no one even noticed. Except for me. That was the moment I had been waiting for. For her to feel all the pain I had felt over such a long period of time all in one moment. For her to feel my chaos. For me to restore order to my life. But it failed. I felt even worse than I did before, knowing that I put someone through that kind of pain. I haven't spoken to her since I graduated, which is when she finally apologized to me, and I accepted it even though I felt like what I did was worse. There are very very few regrets I have had in my life. Writing that poem was one of them. I haven't written about anything serious since, just a few things about Michael Jordan. Writing deep poetry like that just reminds me too much of the pain I brought on her and myself.
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if you dont mind me saying but, thats the type of shit that makes someof the most satanic villians,id use this story one day i only need your permission
EDIT : with my weight ,my choice of music ,and love for drawing... ill never find love
Yeah, not everything has always been sunshine and daisies for FLAE, but I like to thing times are good now. Everyone goes through stuff in high school. The difference with me is that I moved on. Some people don't, and that's how super-villains are born!
Also, don't be too sure EA. Lots of girls love artists. Draw your crush a picture, hopefully something like this:
Tell her there's more where that came from if she goes to the dance with you, that it took you like three hours to finish the shading on her upper lip, and that it's probably the best drawing you've ever done.
(I seriously hope you get the movie reference after I went to all this trouble)
HA!
I drew one of my exes once. I mean, it looked exactly like her unlike THAT picture. Girls dig artists, dude. haha
I'm not sure if building a house of "order" out of self-expression is the best way to deal with problems in general. I could go into much greater detail with this but I'm going to try and keep this brief....
that was beautiful, man
Yeah, not everything has always been sunshine and daisies for FLAE, but I like to thing times are good now. Everyone goes through stuff in high school. The difference with me is that I moved on. Some people don't, and that's how super-villains are born!Also, don't be too sure EA. Lots of girls love artists. Draw your crush a picture, hopefully something like this:
Tell her there's more where that came from if she goes to the dance with you, that it took you like three hours to finish the shading on her upper lip, and that it's probably the best drawing you've ever done.
(I seriously hope you get the movie reference after I went to all this trouble)
nepoleon dynamite ,funny movie. has a fox show coming
I'm not sure if building a house of "order" out of self-expression is the best way to deal with problems in general. I could go into much greater detail with this but I'm going to try and keep this brief.One thing I want to point out is that the elements of chaos and order coexist with each-other. The idea of chaos exists because it is meant to corrupt serenity and order, and vice versa. You yourself mentioned that all emotions and other elements such as love or hate live within the ideas of both order and chaos. You can't have one without the other. It doesn't matter if you build a wall of order with self-expression (art, writing, other literature, ect.). Let me present a scenario from my life:
FLAE, I am really happy that you shared your story with me, and in it I find even more meaning. Reading it a second time after the first I realize that you're completely correct, and my initial topic was an incomplete thought. Both chaos AND order are required, and self-expression by no means can solve any problems. It's merely a form of escapism, and of getting a point across. You've brought your point across incredibly well, and I have to thank you for that. In my eyes the most important thing for me is to just keep my mind open and never immediately discount something or say it's impossible, always be expecting new and unseen things to happen and to be discovered. Like you said, I'm still young, haven't been around too long, I'm learning from my mistakes and keeping my successes. I just need more of both. That's another thing I realized; mistakes aren't completely bad. Failure helps me by showing me what doesn't help me, if you know what I mean.
Thank you very much, and I'll definitely keep every word you said in mind.
Now, I'm gonna read what everyone else wrote haha